Pensive/Seasons in the Field "The Psalms of Ariana"

(pensive)

beauty for ashes. embrace me with open arms hold me purify soothe soft your words tonight that make these shattered pieces shine in your eyes polish me in your hands hold me shape me i'm your own and it pulls me and i can't stop staring into your light and beauty where i'll stay forever wipe my eyes dry you always forgive me you never forget me.

thirty three. refine attempt in time contempt granite stones cut sublime statue cracks to turn its back defile its maker structure lacks a final purchase alias in name it's a record for a hall of shame reshaping built to be a clone discoloration remodeled and disowned now inhospitable hypocritical passed on and thrown away foundation was built disrespected now betray apathy has you lulled to sleep spewn from the mouth that kissed your soul idolatry what was done in secret in now revealed.

(re)fabrication. it fits you well hidden underneath but the stain is seen as the garments fall in concealment inconsistent indecision lies frayed faded and torn one size fits all past stitched and restored purchased torn and patched iron and fold fabric made to last worn and adored sale price item slashed if fit you well now it's tucked away but the dye bleeds as the garment is washed in concealment inconsistent interwoven lies the mirror reveals the true appearance only backwards please don't mend my ignorance please don't wash my ignorance please don't wear my ignorance please don't take my ignorance ignorance isn't bliss the truth will set you free please don't take my dignity.

the subtlety of silence. memories cling like unwanted picture frames clenced in a child's bloodied hands screaming out with tables turned on me twist inside ocean tides a bullet that you cannot outrun tears from the inside seeking serenity the subtlety of silence the muted chorus of words unheard unsaid unknown forgotten i held my breath forever horror hated love silence has let me slip away into the Father's hands you let me slip away raped in silence taste of blood defiled ravaged Jesus i cry Jesus healing restoration subtlety of silence my heart explodes into bits of coveted vomit and hated love subtlety of silence rhythmic rocking took me back to another midnight.

spiritfall. come Holy Spirit we invite Your presence Come Holy Spirit let Your anointing fall sweet wind come and blow over me sweet fire come and burn over me Spiritfall You are so worthy to receive honor You are so worthy to receive glory.

(seasons in the field)

Drawback- Farther and farther dim grows the once lit path, still His arms await always open wide, willing to accept you as you are, waiting to once again hold his child near, for whom He shed His blood, for whom He gave His life, that He may buy you back but you have run away. Harder and harder it becomes to watch you fall the hands of this world slowly choking you, while two that are pierced reach out longing to embrace, longing to forgive,... redemption ... redeem me.

Caring's Burden- Crushed inside, casualty of emptiness, He cries your name a call to a new life, you don't care, comfortable in hiding, destructive apathy, love poured out, in blood covers sin, always denied, reap your consequences, no more words, see through excuses, receive His life. He cries your name you shut your ears, garment stained with blood and tears, whipped and beat see Him on the cross taking your death.

Eternity- Focused on the unseen, save me from this place, I await the day when I see you face to face, time after time I try to make things right, I fall in my own filthy righteousness, Lord cleanse me in your purity renew my heart, and when I fall You don't give up on me, You lift me out of the holes I've dug so deep... in me there is so much failure yet You love me the same... Lord God my father... In me there is so much failure yet you love me the same today and into eternity help me not to serve the idols of this world.

Judah- As for me I will call upon God and the Lord will save me, evening morning and noon I will pray and cry aloud, and He shall hear my voice, He has redeemed my soul, and peace from the bottle that once was against me, whenever I am afraid I will trust in you, in God I will praise His word in God I have put my trust I will not fear what can flesh do to me.

Renewing Waters- An Altar of worship will now be used for sacrifice, I've brought forth idols carved with my own hands, I've shackled myself with chains of lust, reaping consequences cut me down to my knees... my knees, Father bring forth fire and consume my darkened heart, father bring forth waters of renewal from your throne, As I walk away and stumble down this path I see your hand reach to lift my up.

Fortylessone- For the Lord ahs spoken, He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities, and the chastisement of our peace was upon Him and by His stripes we were healed. Oh death were is your sting oh Hell were is your victory, at the trumpet blast we will be raised, incorruptible clothed in immortality it shall come to pass... death is swallowed up in victory!